I love you to infinity and beyond ∞

If you want me to stay, stop giving me reasons to leave.

2011-09-17T17:45:00.000+08:00

Too tired to hold on, too in love to let go.

Jumble thoughts, mixed feelings.

2011-08-10T22:31:00.002+08:00

I'M NOT FEELING OKAY, BUT I DON'T KNOW WHAT AM I ACTUALLY FEELING. JUMBLE THOUGHTS, MIXED FEELINGS. IT'S LIKE I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME.

I really hope it's just an little obstacle in our way and you are not going to leave me. And you meant what you say. I hope I'm over-thinking all along. But I can't help thinking the negative stuffs. After all, girls are sensitive and over-think, a lot. All I want to tell you is, no other girl will love you like I do. And I hope you realize this or even believe it. Because what I say is the truth, and only the truth.

xx

My worst enemy is my memory.

2011-06-07T14:03:00.002+08:00

So the question is, how do you let go of all those happy memories you once had, so you wont cry over them because you know they would never happen again ? I don't know how, can anyone help ? I doubt so, cos the memories are in you, in your mind. No one can get rid of them, only you can forget them. But as hard as you try, you can't or maybe you won't. You won't want to because this way, you're letting go of something that once make you happy & you are terrified that you would never ever feel happy again.

SENTOSA W LJKUN ON SAT ^^

2011-05-31T18:20:00.006+08:00

LOVE BABY TTM <3 ^^

Part of LJ KUN HAHAHAH.

CSH HEHEHEHEH

Damn sweet can ^^

Paparazzi :(

Look at baby's face HAHAHAHAH.

Whatever it is between us that we have, it’s only between you and I. That’s what makes it special for me. That’s what makes you special to me.

2011-05-30T13:08:00.003+08:00

Spent my Thursday @ boyfriend's house. Reached there at ard 3 and left at ard 10.30 heh.
Have fun w lj-kun & boyfriend on Saturday at Sentosa ^^ Except for a lil part of the day that I got pretty mad. Love the days I got to see boyfriend. Only he can give me that euphoric feeling (: Counting down to the days I get to see him again.

Happy 14th monthsary my dear boy. I love you.

You may find me dumb, but I'm scared of losing you. & I'm scared you will fall for someone else. Tho if you really do that, then you are not worth my love. But still, I can't help but feel afraid.

Ruien Encina Xanthe Sherona

2011-05-03T13:26:00.003+08:00

Have been neglecting this lil space of mine, cos I spend most of my times on Facebook, Twitter & Tumblr & well, ofc school. School is a bitch, I hate going to school. Mayb cos I'm not used to poly life yet ? But I made some awesome friends so yeah, that's not too bad. Take time for me to get used to this type of life, and to start liking school. I hope I adapted to the studying style in poly soon pretty pretty please. The only good thing about coming to NP is that I'm able to see Sh & baby since we are in the same school. Been meeting up alot with baby since school start for cca try-outs and stuff. But hey, I like. I like seeing him for 3-4 times per week ^____^ & he says he needs my help on maths since his maths is getting from bad to worse hahah. I'll gladly help, baby (:

I'm having my lunchtime break now. At the library with Yuanyuan (: Didnt went for lunch cos I already ate at Munch in the morning after doing our grp proj. Not hungry at all so yeah (: & the canteens are always so packed during lunchtime, how are we suppose to have lunch with no seats and long queues ? Hahahah, anyway I'm glad I've got a friend now to spend lunchtime breaks with ^^

It ain't impossible . It just won't be that easy , that's all .

2011-04-12T11:17:00.003+08:00

“Yes I love him. I love him more than anything else in this world and there is nothing that I would like better than to hold on to him forever. But I know it's not for the best. So no matter how much my heart is going to break, I've got to let him go so he can know just how much I love him. Maybe if I'm lucky, he'll come back, but if not, I can make it through this.”

It's over.

2011-04-08T19:46:00.005+08:00

Honestly speaking, I'm fucking upset. Because of you. & you have no idea what you've done to me right ? Do I have to spell it out clearly for you ? Because I hate being lied to & you being one of the most important person in my life lied to me. & it's fucking hurting. I guess you are gna leave me someday just like how people around me keep leaving me no matter what I do. I wish you could stay but I guess it wont happen. You lied to me & all I do is post that para as my fb status, just to vent my anger out. I typed that in a fit of anger, & you dared to get angry at me. YOU ARE THE WHO LIED FIRST IF NOT WHY WOULD I EVEN TYPED THAT ? I APOLOGISED ALR AND REMOVED IT AND STILL YOU ARE ANGRY. AND WHEN I SAY LET'S BREAK UP YOU SAY K SHOULD HAVE BEEN EARLIER. WTF.

Happy Valentine's Day baby :)

2011-02-14T22:05:00.000+08:00

So today’s my first Valentine’s Day w a boyf heh <: So I met him at bb mrt station & waited for him while he get there from Aloy’s house. Then we went pool, suck ttm bleah. Dk why I played dao so lousy today :3 Even he noticed. He asked me how come I wasn’t my usual standard. Sigh. Then went w him to buy soya milk, he’s darn cute really heh. & we dk where else to go & im too tired to go his house so yeah we went home. Even tho it’s a short 3h spent tgt, I’m v happy alr. & I THINK HE’S REALLY REALLY CUTE LOR AWW & he’s so nice ! He bought along his jacket for me in case i got cold even tho he find it a hassle to bring along his jacket ! We took a cab & he sent me home. Thanks baby ! :) Gave him my present & the smile on his face when he receive it is priceless.
I love you .

Currently waiting for him to online. He says he wants to play audi for awhile :)

45.

2011-01-16T00:00:00.001+08:00

45 things a girl wants for but wont ask for.
1. Touch her waist.
2. Actually talk to her.
3. Share secrets with her.
4. Give her your jacket.
5. Kiss her slowly.
Are you remembering this?
6. Hug her.
7. Hold her.
8. Laugh with her.
9. Invite her somewhere.
10. Hangout with her and your friends together.
KEEP READING ..
11. Smile with her.
12. Take pictures with her.
13. Pull her onto your lap.
14. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back.
15. When her friends say “I love her more than you”, deny it. Fight back and hug her tight so she can’t get to her friends. It makes her feel loved.
Are you thinking of someone?
16. Always hug her and say I love you whenever you see her.
17. Kiss her unexpectedly.
18. Hug her from behind around the waist.
19. Tell her she’s beautiful.
20. Tell her the way you feel about her.
One last thing you need to do to show her you actually do mean it.
21. Open doors for her, walk her to her car - it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a gentleman.
22. Tell her she’s your everything - only if you mean it.
23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her - if she denies something being wrong, it means SHE DOESN’T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT - so just hug her.
24. Make her feel loved.
25. Kiss her in front of OTHER girls you know!
WE MIGHT DENY IT BUT WE ACTUALLY LIKE AND KINDA WANT YOU TO TICKLE US .. 26. Don’t lie to her.
27. DON’T cheat on her.
28. Take her ANYWHERE she wants.
29. Text message or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at school, and how much you miss her.
30. Be there for her whenever she needs you, and even when she doesn’t need you, just be there so she’ll know that she can always count on you.
ARE YOU STILL READING THIS? YOU BETTER, BECAUSE IT’S IMPORTANT.
31. Hold her close when she’s cold so she can hold you too.
32. When you are alone hold her close and kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the cheek; (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her).
34. While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her lightly.
35. Don’t ever tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you’re mad. If she’s upset, comfort her.
REMEMBER ALL THESE THINGS WHEN YOU ARE WITH HER NEXT .. 3
6. When people diss her, stand up for her.
37. Look deep into her eyes and tell her you love her.
38. Lay down under the stars and put her head on your chest so she can listen to the steady beat of your heart, link your fingers together while you whisper to her as she rests her eyes and listens to you.
39. When walking next to each other grab her hand.
40. When you hug her, hold her in your arms as long as possible.
MAKE SURE SHE KNOWS SHES LOVED.
41. Call or text her at night to wish her sweet dreams.
42. Comfort her when she cries and wipe away her tears.
43. Take her for long walks at night.
44. Always remind her how much you love her.
45. Sit on top of her and tell her how much you love her and then bend down to her face and kiss her while you’re sitting on her.
You’ll never know when she needs just a little more love ..

I'm freaking awesome .

2011-01-14T11:11:00.000+08:00

" btw, i wanna say, i think you are damn freaking pro cause you sleep in class in almost every period and yet you still can get 11 (Y) good job man HAHAHAH "

HAHAHA IM SO COOL YAY .

Headache :/

2011-01-12T14:19:00.001+08:00

Am working at Isetan now heheh, using wifi <: just got back my O level results, super unexpected k. I got 11 for l1r4, the r2b2 also 11, and l1r5 14. My parents wanted me to go jc cos they think i have a pretty good grade but I cant imagine myself in jc, studying like in sec sch. I slept in classes, didnt do hw and use comp everyday from the moment I reach home from school until my sleeping time :/ its quite a miracle I got this kindof score, really. I thought sh and jx will get better grades than mine since they are more hardworking than me and their prelims results are far better than mine. My prelim results suck ttm, I cant get into jc with my prelim score k, thats how bad it is. Ended up, my poly pts is better than them :x Irony, thats what jx said hah.

I want to go to the same poly as baby ! Heh, and our first year anniversary is coming LOL. LOVE YOU TO BITS BABY HEH . I guess Im most probably going to poly, but what course to take, I STILL DONT KNOW. Sigh .

HEHEHEH .

2010-12-22T19:51:00.002+08:00

#98802 Nihao! Haha everytime play these status stuffs we'll confirm be involved one hor? Also wrote for each other many times already leh :P So, i'm sorry but i gotta repeat! Last long with your guy! Truth to be told, I was shocked when i knw u guys were together leh! Haha, but aiya. Your happiness is most impt, yes? (: Stay happyyyy & catchup soon!

98802. WOO my travelling mate! known you since the first day of school, but we don't really talk now :( but you made a difference in my life! dont be so emo la hahah

98802. HELLOOOOO. YOU SHOULD SHARE HEIGHT WITH ME :D HAHA. NEXT YEAR WONT SEE YOU ANYMORE >: SIGH.

Bleah.

2010-12-12T15:11:00.002+08:00

True love doesn't have a happy ending, because true love never ends. Letting go is one way of saying I love you.

OTANJOBI OMEDETTO GOZAIMASU
I love you and goodnight .

Teehee :)

2010-11-17T18:00:00.001+08:00

♥

Lv outing - 061110

2010-11-08T17:49:00.000+08:00

Tumblr .

2010-11-04T18:34:00.001+08:00

You see those bags under her eyes? You see her breaking out? You see her coming to school bummy and tired. Why? Cause she stays up at night, talking to you. She makes sure you're alright, and that you're smiling before you go to bed. When you're upset, she stays awake even though she's falling asleep at the keyboard, trying to make things better. When she hasn't talked to you the whole day, she waits for you to come online. It doesn't matter what time it is. She'll wait a good while, worry a little bit and sleep when she absolutely knows you're not coming on. I know, she may not look her best the next day. But she fights for your happiness.

:)

2010-10-31T10:26:00.001+08:00

♥

Neiur .

2010-10-23T17:40:00.002+08:00

Been neglecting this space for dk how long alr .
Tumblr much easier & much more fun.
Tho I prefer blogger still.
Just that I'm lazy to type ==
Anyway I guess everyt is alrights or maybe I have to wait until after os to find out .
Pleaseeeee dont let everyt fall apart .

Cos I love you .

202; :(

2010-10-17T14:57:00.000+08:00

Urgh I feel as if you are giving excuses.

Been posting on tumblr lately.

www.justruien.tumblr.com

195;101010 ♥

2010-10-10T13:41:00.002+08:00

Lv's outing at sentosa ytd :)

Quite enjoyable tho i was mad tired .____________.
Reach home at bout 11.15, baby sent me home <:

194; Aww .

2010-10-09T10:40:00.000+08:00

This week is suckyyyyyyyyyy max until I saw Maya's blogpost :)

Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest

2010-10-05T16:36:00.002+08:00

You broke my heart the hardest but you are the one who I love the most .

It's all in the past now & it's partly my fault .

Anyway what matters is now .

190; Aw shucks

2010-10-05T16:25:00.006+08:00

Wont be able to go Shanghai with them .
Just my luck but nothing i can do about it eh ?
All their "reasons" for not allowing are simply idiotic .
Forget it.
Guess I will be rotting at home during the duration and being left out .
They say there will be other chances .
But this time im going with my friends .
They just dont understand .
The next time im going will be with different people eh ?
& she say after secondary school all of us will be going different places so it doesnt matter if i went or not.
That's totally not the point aint ?
Excuses, all excuses, thanks for ruining my mood .
Tho I know you are worried, but hello ? I'm 16. I can take care of myself for a freaking few days -.-
FML .

Yay , baby say hes gna bring me out during those days they going Shanghai teehee .

Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad

2010-10-04T18:30:00.003+08:00

Dont break my heart .

Uh-huh , baby, you are that someone who's always on my mind ♥
"You're kinda, basically, pretty much, sort of, always on my mind ."
I always thought of the past & how you make me smile/laugh .
The sweet stuffs you said, it make me happy even when I'm sad .
An example would be nao, cos some people just dont get it. Freaking selfish .
I hope you will always be with me :)
Anyway, I love you <:

189; Wondering

2010-10-04T17:00:00.000+08:00

And I wonder how will you respond if i ever disappear from your life one day.

Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be

2010-10-03T14:30:00.007+08:00

Idk who I wish I could be.

But I wish Im shorter,prettier,cuter,smarter, a lil skinnier & everything else nice.

Day 17 — Someone from your childhood

2010-10-02T11:03:00.001+08:00

I dont rmb anyone from my childhood, sad :(

Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country

2010-10-01T20:02:00.000+08:00

Nope, no one ~

Day 15 — The person you miss the most

2010-09-30T17:47:00.010+08:00

Six months ♥

The person I miss the most is you & always will be you.

Tho I had just saw you, you are still on my mind <:

I enjoy being with you, even if we are doing nothing .

Love you truckloads , baby ♥ ♥ ♥

Now every February, you’ll be my valentine, valentine. Let’s go all the way tonight, no regrets, just love. We can dance until we die, you and I, will be young forever ♥
-Teenage Dream, Katy Perry .

Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from

2010-09-29T16:11:00.004+08:00

Friends that will be there for you everytime ♥

Thanks for being sucha great friend tho i think we kinda drifted away.
There isnt any phone conversations anymore not like last time where we would talk on the phone for several hours . I realised we havent talk on the phone in this year .
Anyway im glad & surprised you sms-ed me ytd :)
Kinda make me miss talking to ya again .

& I love you <: ♥

Haha, this is for ya, weishan tho i doubt you will see this :)

xoxo,

Ruien ♥

Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you

2010-09-28T15:56:00.001+08:00

Nope, theres no one I wish could forgive me .

183; Won't fall out of love with you

2010-09-28T15:53:00.004+08:00

Parachute
I don't tell anyone about the way you hold my hand
I don't tell anyone about the things that we have planned
I won't tell anybody, won't tell anybody
They wanna push me down they wanna see you fall down
And I won't tell anybody how you turned my world around
I won't tell anyone how your voice is my favourite sound
I won't tell anybody, won't tell anybody
They wanna see us fall they wanna see us fall down
I don't need a parachute baby if I've got you
Baby if I've got you I don't need a parachute
You're gonna catch me
You're gonna catch if I fall, down, down, down
[x2]
Don't believe the things you tell yourself so late at night
You are your own worst enemy you'll never win the fight
Just hold onto me, I'll hold onto you
It's you and me up against the world it's you and me, go
I don't need a parachute baby if I've got you
Baby if I've got you I don't need a parachute
You're gonna catch me
You're gonna catch if I fall, down, down, down
[x2]
I won't fall out of love
I won't fall out of
I won't fall out of love
I won't fall out of
I won't fall out of love
I won't fall out of
I won't fall out of love
I'll fall into you
[x2]
I don't need a parachute baby if I've got you
Baby if I've got you I don't need a parachute
You're gonna catch me
You're gonna catch if I fall, down, down, down
[x2]

Yup i wont.

Urgh, i feel like im bugging you .

Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee .

Sucha bad feeling :(

182; You

2010-09-27T16:59:00.017+08:00

Some people told me im lucky .

I guess im a lucky girl .

Cos I got you ;)

" All I know is I love you too much to walk away ♥ "

Since im not gna walk away from you, I hope you wouldnt too . Pretty please ? :>

Edited

"A guy buys a girl eleven fresh red roses and one silk rose and gives the dozen roses to her and he told her that he will stop loving her when the last rose shrivels and dies."

Vin asked me what if the guy is gone & the girl will be sad for her whole life ?

I replied then that's true love .

After much thoughts, I realised theres no true love or maybe it is just applicable to some people .

& Vin said he's surprised this sentence comes from me .

"When i am old and my children ask me who my first love was i dont want to have to pull out an old photo album i want to be able to point across the room and say he is sitting right over there. "

I hope Im able to do that too .

Funny how theres so many likes on fb about love .

Urgh, feel very moodless nao .

Vin, your fault :(

& yup i feel different nao after you said i seem different today -.-

Hadnt feel so moodless for a long time alr & yet it came back today . Idiot .

But still, I know baby's gna make it all right again somehow :)

If I never met you, I wouldn't like you.

If I didn't like you, I wouldn't love you.

If I didn't love you, I wouldn't miss you.

But I did, I do, and I will.

Well, this like on fb pretty much sums up everyt I wanna say .

Faster reply my text :(

♥ ♥ ♥

Sucha long post .

I suppose this post is kinda dedicated for you Lol :)

Love ya baby.

With loves,

'Ruien Encina-Daybreak Xanthe Sherona

Day 12 — The person you hate most

2010-09-27T16:29:00.004+08:00

Since I hate you & had wrote a letter for you already, I dont find a need for me to waste my time and write you another one .

Teehee.

2010-09-26T14:39:00.004+08:00

At bb mac "studying" with taylor and sh ~ too bad baby woke up late D:
Blogging on phone haa .

Edited .
Sh say im very red cos i was wearing red netball tee, red hairband and red watch LOL .
Left at 4+ , dad came to pick me up .
Went aunt hse, ate & talked to cousins :)
Then left for jp to buy groceries .
&& bought black skinnies ♥ HAHA !

181; Sist ♥

2010-09-26T10:17:00.000+08:00

Heeeee sucha cute sist ♥

Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to

2010-09-26T10:12:00.003+08:00

Well my paternal grandfather then .

It's a pity that you are not around already when I was born .
I dont even know how you look like .

Ruien

180; Cute :>

2010-09-25T16:44:00.006+08:00

Besty asked me to go for outing but i cant D:
Heh & baby said he thought he told me and that i would be coming after my tuition .
HAHA he said he think he dreamt of that ^^
& that means he dreamt of me teehee .
Cute baby :>

Yeah i know baby's singing is good ^^ Heeee .

♥

Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to

2010-09-25T13:59:00.004+08:00

Dear Maya my 8 year friend ,

Thanks for being such a funny, nice, noob, dumb, friendly, stupid, retarded and idiotic friend ♥ HAHAHAHA .

I dont talk to you as much as i like or as much as before :(

Heh but i still love you :>

xoxo ,

Ruien ♥

Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet

2010-09-24T14:37:00.008+08:00

I wish I could meet you everyday but i dont want you to get tired of me :(

Yeah this letter is for you, baby :)

Love you loads ♥

xoxo ,

Ruien ♥

178; Wtf .

2010-09-23T18:27:00.008+08:00

Sick of prep exams .
I prefer normal lessons D:
Anyway thanks Taylor for the hershey chocolate bar, totally make my day :D
& also thanks for treating me to breadtalk bread LOL <:

How hard is it to say sorry ? It's like everything also not your fault, it's someone/something's else fault .__________. Just accept the blame if it's really your fault . & then only people can help you, you cant ? My feet really hurts & what did ya do ? Ran down the stairs & left me behind . Wtf . Just ranting, dont take it to heart :)

Deleted dead links & updated new ones ~

Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend

2010-09-23T17:28:00.003+08:00

Well, as for naoz i have 3 favourite internet friends ^^

Dear cuteee Nic ,

Thanks for all your advices and all since you've been thru it. Haha .
Everyone kinda tries to discourage me tho i think they dont mean to but you asked me not to lisen to them <:
& you shouldnt be too upset over your ex.
Dont spoil your mood because of her.
It aint worth it :)
Cheerup eh .
I enjoy audi-ing with you, tangtang & jy everyday :D
I'm glad I know you , cuteeeeeeeeeeee Nic <:

xoxo ,

Ruien ♥

Dear TANGTANG ,

You are nice la kay <:
Don't keep say I bully you D:
I dont bully, im nice and stop asking me to look into the mirror bleah
Anyway im jealous of you and jy HAHAHA .
You two are suchhhhh cute audi cpl eh ^^
All in all, im glad you joined Lv and i get to know you , TANGTANG :>

xoxo ,

SWEETSWEET :> ♥

LOLOL .

Dear Jiayi ,
You are so cuteeeeeeeeeee , & even more cuter when bickering when Tangtang HAHAHA
Cutecute couple :>
Im glad you are tangtang's couple and i get to know you ! :D

xoxo ,

Enen ♥

Wanted to upload a photo of us playing audi but i realised i didnt have .____.

Day 7 — Your Ex-boyf/girlf/love/crush

2010-09-22T18:56:00.004+08:00

No ex-boyf ~
Im not a les, no ex-girlf~
mm ex crush, perharps .

Dear _______,
Wont ever talk to ya again, cos apparently you are too self-absorbed and obsessed with your girlf that whenever you talk to me is because of her ? Oh and i dont think you are really considered my crush or whatever but since i have no one to write to , so i shall just write for you and vent out all my anger :>
& another reason for not talking to ya ever again is because of the last text you sent me.
Apparently you are handing your phone to your girlf the next day thus you ask me not to text you the next day. Idiotic huh. You make it seem like im your second girlf or whatsoever .______. It's just weird .
Mayb thats not how you mean it or mayb you love her too much thus you are afraid she's gna get jealous because some girl text her boyf ? -.- Well, cant you just say it in a nicer way ? Urgh .
& judging by what you told me, I think you love her alot aint ?
Well, last forever with her <: & i have to thank ya for something . If you didnt advice me to ____________, i doubt I ever get it back :>
Thanks for always making me smile and laugh at those idiotic conversations .

Ruien .

176; Urgh .

2010-09-21T18:36:00.005+08:00

Yup, I have to go after what I want & step forward.

Didnt do the 2 sets of history papers ._.
Urgh, needa pull up my socks alr aint ?

Day 6 - A Stranger

2010-09-21T16:36:00.004+08:00

I wonder how im gna write a letter for a stranger -_-
Well stranger,
i guess you might be my classmate, schoolmate, friend I will meet in the future :)
Or even a LV member I havent met bef hah ~
So dear stranger,
I hope we will get along well in the future ^^

xoxo,

Ruien

175; School :(

2010-09-20T18:32:00.003+08:00

I want to be your everything ~

Went to school as usual .
Feet hurts -.-
Prep exam is boring .
Ss set 1, review, recess, Ss set 2, review, lunch, Hist set 1, Home .

Day 5 - Your Dreams

2010-09-20T17:40:00.006+08:00

I currently dont have any dreams nao .
I dont even know what school i wanna get into next year .
Jc/poly ? I dont even have a clue tho it's most probably Jc ? ._.
But look at my L1R5, its so freaking lousy :(
Well, let's just imagine i got a dream .___.

Dear dream,
Please come true, thankyou :)

Well, I guess i got one .
I want to live happily ever after with you, baby ♥

xoxo,

Ruien

174; Feet hurts :/

2010-09-19T13:32:00.006+08:00

LouisVuitton .

Felix,Jolene,Angie,Henry,Yiyan,Vincent,Guozheng,Justin & Ruien :)

Lv outing wasnt that bad, much better than the prev one I went to ;)
Tho I fell down while walking down the stairs -___-
& i dont even know how or why i fell down, ohman im such a noob :(
Wasnt that pain ytd , tho dk why when I woke up today it's much more pain zz .
Please be better by monday, i dont want to be limping to school ~

Love you baby ♥

Day 4 - Sibling

2010-09-19T12:01:00.011+08:00

Thanks for being a niceeee sist who never fails to make me laugh with your antics :) But pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeee stop being insanely irritating -___- When I tell you to leave me alone, just leave me alone, pretty please :( HAHA . You are insanely cute at times tho :D

Awesome sist ! ♥

Having you as my sister is like having a best friend I can't
get rid of. You know whatever you do, they'll still be there. ♥.♥

xoxo,

Ruien

Day 3 - Your Parents

2010-09-18T10:57:00.003+08:00

Dontknow what to write , but well thanks for being my parents ♥ & putting up with my nonsesense -__-
& Im sorry i didnt meet your expectations, :(
I will study hard for my o levels ( I hope ) .

xoxo,

Ruien

Day 2 - Your Crush

2010-09-17T18:14:00.004+08:00

For DIAIA girlf ♥ LOL .
mmm i doubt you will ever see this but thanks anyway :)
Thanks for being such a awesome friend~ & yeah and you said you will always be there for me ;)
HAHA. Meet up soon after O level, cos i miss you badly :(

xoxo,

ENEN ♥

Day 1 - Your Best Friend

2010-09-16T22:32:00.006+08:00

Well ,this letter shall be for Jx & Sh :) Known Sh for like 4 years , Jx for a pathetic 1 1/2 years but you two are awesome much ^^ Thanks for always being there for me & helping me thru that awful period of time LOL . & school's enjoyable because of you two ^^ & also because of that sjb advisor of yours , sh HAHA . Yup, & I got to know Zy Qh thru you twooo.

You two are the awesomest ♥

xoxo,

Your awesome mama ( sh's ) & awesome xifu ( Jx's ) LOLOL .

30 letters .

2010-09-16T21:11:00.000+08:00

Shall try the 30 letters thing :)
Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

171; Idiot .

2010-09-16T19:04:00.000+08:00

You are getting on my nerves. Seriously, go get a life -.-

170; Heartstrings

2010-09-15T19:45:00.005+08:00

All I know is I love you too much to walk away ♥

You, yes you baby :)

Love you manymany ~

167 ♥

2010-09-12T16:04:00.002+08:00

At grandma's hse .
Didnt realised theres wireless here all this while im here ._.

166; xoxo

2010-09-11T16:35:00.003+08:00

Everything's back to normal :)
& Nic , dont worry i wont emo or sad HAHAHA .
Finished my 41 cards ytd , finally !
Got a shock ytd when i realised my malaysia trip was 20+ Nov .
I was so scared it would clash w prom & my momz say if it really clashed, then i wont be able to go prom ._.
So sms-ed people to find out when & thanks to taylor , found out its 22 Nov just a few days bef my malaysia trip . Super lucky !
Finally found a dress thats long enough for me ._.
Downside of being tall : Hard to find dresssssssss .

Baby was sweet, ask me go his house stay HAHA !

165; Need You Now .

2010-09-10T12:47:00.008+08:00

Is it me or you who changed ?

Someone asked me this :
would u..just let something that is on the verge of breaking apart break apart or would u cling onto something that is on the verge of breaking apart closely.. preventing it from breaking ?
What would you do ?
I thought my life was near-perfect until now.
I hope it's gna be near-perfect again. Please.
You are the only one who could make this right .

Awesome day .

2010-09-09T22:08:00.003+08:00

I REALISED IM REALLY NOOB .
Never had a four person phone conversation bef until today HAHA .
It's like damn coolz tho shihui sounds like she's talking from China ( Taylor's words not mine HAH ). & Taylor's voice is real loud. The funny thing is Taylor was talking about going sentosa to study (?!) & then after that qiaohui came into the conversation. Then the conversation went from sentosa to maths LOLOL . After that only me sh and Taylor was in the conver and finally Taylor convinced me to come out ._. Went to meet them, Taylor was adamant about going to Sentosa .____. So we went vivo first. Weeee thanks Taylor for the bread HAHA :) Went Giant to buy drinks and went Sentosa. Went beach slack then went bugis national library LOL .
Went there to write up some of the cards Ms Chua asked us to finished. Left 14 ! :D
I TOTALLY LOVE TODAY . Even tho it's just threeee of us, I had fun, great fun. Thanks to Taylor's weird antics and Sh's funny comments HAHA .
Today is awesome much ;)

Implicit trust .

2010-09-08T16:40:00.007+08:00

No one likes to pretend aint ? I need the real you .

I felt as if i dont know you anymore or maybe i didnt really know you in the first place. I really dont know what to do or think anymore. I thought i know you, but or maybe i did,just that i dont know you that well enough i suppose. I wish everything could go back to the past, just as it was. But no doubts, it's impossible. I hope everything's alright. I just dont want everything to fall out of place yet again . But maybe it's inevitable? I dont know but i certainly hope it's not the case. I wish I know what's up with you. I wish I could mind-read.Will someone tell me what to do ? Im really lost. This kinda feeling, the feeling that you dont know anything anymore or whether what you always thought was true was really true or was really just lies just that you didnt realised it, really sucks. Buti'm holding on to the hope that they are really truths. Maybe Im being self-delusional eh ?

Sh's bday :)

2010-09-01T16:05:00.005+08:00

29th Aug
Went wm and bought butter,sugar,cocoa powder & diced almonds.
Went qh's house to make chocolate for sh bday present :)
Stayed until 4.30 then i went off cos i got to go grandma's hse .

30th Aug
Reach qh's house at 10.30, tried the chocolate tho it taste like brownie haha .
Then jx zy and me went to wm swensens to accompany sh to take her cake. Her neighbour bought it for her haha . We went back her house , ate buffet and cake.
Niceeee ♥ We took a long time to decide where to go == went marina barrage .
Took us quite a while to get there @@ we bought a kite for sh HAHA .

Pfft .

2010-08-27T14:21:00.000+08:00

People are all the same . They only want to hear what they wish to hear . Even though they knew it's false , they still choose to believe it .

Teehee .

2010-08-26T20:27:00.005+08:00

Math tells us three of the saddest love stories: of parallel lines- who
were never meant to meet. Of tangent lines- who were together once then
parted forever. And of asymptotes- who could only get closer and
closer, but could never be together.

FIVEFIVEFIVE TEEHEEEEE <3

Insecure .

2010-08-23T18:00:00.002+08:00

Sigh, this is badz .
No school tmr as im not taking chinese prelim :)
More time to study chemistry i guess .
I'm feeling insecure wth .

?

2010-08-20T16:24:00.000+08:00

The one who is left behind. The the one who left. Who hurts more?

Bleah .

2010-08-19T17:30:00.002+08:00

The person who usually cause you the most pain is the one who you love the most.

Sometimes you can pour out everything in your heart and only get a simple short reply. That just really hurts you.

Waiting ,yet again .

:)

2010-08-18T20:12:00.002+08:00

Got A1 Distinction for chinese o level :)
Kinda surprised , thought i screwed up my compo, completely didntknow what to write .
But well i guess im lucky heh .
O level eng oral and start of prelim tmr .
Sigh .

~

2010-08-17T21:54:00.001+08:00

No one else will have me like you do. No one else will have me, only you.

Officially Missing You .

2010-08-14T19:54:00.001+08:00

I don’t want to be your number one. Being your number one implies that there could be a number two and maybe a number three. I want to be your only one.

Hmm .

2010-08-14T11:57:00.001+08:00

What hurts the most is when you met someone who means alot to you, only to find out in the end that it was never bound to be & you just have to let it go .

HAPPYBIRTHDAYSINGAPORE.

2010-08-09T11:47:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE ♥

@.@

2010-08-07T12:19:00.002+08:00

Doing amaths p2 early in the morning -.-
Later gna go for maths tuition , maths again rawrrawrrawr .
Amaths p1 p2 emaths p1 p2 and chem p2 for this weekend hw sigh .
Differentiation test on wed i think wth .

People so seldom say I love you And then it's either too late or love goes. So
when I tell you I love you, It doesn't mean I know you'll never go,
Only that I wish you didn't have to.

Noobz .

2010-08-05T19:21:00.002+08:00

Wanted to audi but theres some prob w the free server wtf .
There's only entry and arena servers .
I cant get in entry server cos level too high but idw use a noob acc ._.
Arena's open at 8 for expert only wthwth.
Maintenance for like 5 days naoz still got problem (Y)
YOG@BBSS quite a waste of time ._.
Didnt participate in anyt at first (kz asked me join captain's ball cos not enough people lol ) & Jx went for the conversation thingy thus damn sian diao ~
But heng got captain's ball .
Played two out of three matches , win one lost one heh .
Damn tired eh , after that waited for the gate to open at 5.
LOLOL BBSSians are like prisoners manz,gate locked need wait for 5 then gate open -_-
School end at 1 but cannot go out buy stuffs eat cos the gate is locked ._.
Pfft .

Heartstrings ♥

2010-08-02T19:04:00.006+08:00

SHIHUI :
STILL DAREEEE ACT BLUR %#*$&#$&*%&#$ ACTBLUR-QUEEN -.-

Today was alright .
No wait not alright at all .
Hmph .

Edited.
SHIHUI :
YES YOU DO ACT BLUR . DONT ACT BLURRR NAOZ :@
HAHAHAHAHA .

My new blogskin ♥
Hehe .

Pig's , I ♥ you ^^

Biteyou .

2010-07-30T22:26:00.002+08:00

I have no absolutely no clue what to update ._.
My life is uninteresting and mundane pfft .
But my daughter , TANSHIHUI point a gun to my head and forced me to update :<
So here I am updating a rather dead blog .
abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz .
zyxwvutsrqponmlkjihgfedcba .
Yay i updated :D

~

2010-06-25T16:43:00.001+08:00

Even a blind man can see that i love you
Even a deaf man can hear the feelings i got for you
Even a dead person can feel how much i love you
♥

Sigh~

2010-06-13T16:55:00.000+08:00

Didnt do any hw today , fail -_-
Just kept sighing ~

It's never meant to be .

2010-06-12T14:27:00.002+08:00

I need a reality check .

Hm ,just finished my amaths paper 1 ! I'm hardworking HAHAHA .
Left with amaths and emaths paper 2 , phy paper and chem papers .
:D

Oreo crush ♥

2010-06-11T22:35:00.005+08:00

Hiiiiiii , im back from the prom dress shopping trip !
Hah , didnt manage to buy a dress . But still , it was fun (:
Lynnestherhuilinjingxia went somerset first while sh and me went there later cos i got piano lesson ~
Reached there , call jingxia . She damn funneh say come bring us but never ask where we are -_- after that went to shop . Damn tiring though.
Lynn's really a shopaholic , every shop also want go in HAHAHAH .

I hate my height manszx , most dresses are too short for me ._.

Hearts & Kisses .

2010-06-08T15:12:00.004+08:00

You're just like the musical notes, capable of making me high & low.

Im here to update . Update about what ? About nothing cos nothing's interesting happen naozadays -_-
One more day of extra lessons !!!!! :D
Gonna go shopping for prom dress w huilinlynnestherjingxiashihui on Thurs or Fri !
& HIIIIIIIIIIIIIII MARCIAAAA ~

HIIIIII , IM DAYBREAK~

2010-06-06T19:52:00.000+08:00

My heart is yours to keep ♥

Allergy

2010-05-25T22:09:00.001+08:00

Allergic to chinese naoz omgz :(
Two more days of chinese concentrated camp & it's holidays !!

Stop ranting please.

2010-05-18T17:49:00.002+08:00

You said you hate me .
You said I think whatever i do is right .
You said I spent wayyy too much time on the internet.
You said I didnt spend time on my piano .
You said that Im following in other people's footsteps , that im on a diet.
Which is completely untrue ._.
You said alot of things . Rant on and on and on.
But have you realise you also think whatever you say is right when it's completely untrue ? Whenever I try to say anything in my defence, you stopped me,reluctant to listen. You try being a teenager , try going to school , try living my life. It aint that easy as it seems.

Underneath those fake smiles.

2010-05-15T17:59:00.001+08:00

Went bb to meet sh , zy , ahliang , vin and jianting.
Sh never say clearly thus Jx thought we not meeting -.-
Waited for her at Jurong bleah .
Then went vivo , ate subway .
Then went to Sentosa.
Came back Vivo to eat sakae .
Shared a bowl of ramen w sh and ahliang cos we arent hungry.
Then went home (:

-.-

2010-05-13T19:34:00.000+08:00

EARPIECE DIED ;/

Laughs.

2010-05-12T17:58:00.002+08:00

Today is stupid , went to school for half an hour for chinese listening compre ._.
After went westmall mac w qiaohui and jx .
Shared hotcakes w sausages w zeying while those two eat ice cream
Weirdo so early eat ice cream HAHHAHAH .
Stupid Jx want go home watch her show and thus wanted to go home :(
Hmph. So they went home after ahliang came .
Waited for ahliang to finish and then took mrt to Causeway.
Waited for sh and jianting to come .
Ate pizza hut ! :D
Watched Ironman 2 . I think it's quite nice la though i dont understand some parts.
But ahliang explained it to me so quite alright.
Went home aft that (:

Contemplating.

2010-05-08T10:27:00.006+08:00

Been leaving blanks in every papers except chinese and english .______.
Gonna flunk every subj I guess .

Tired of everything, been contemplating whether to end it though i dont wish to.
Been so distracted since what happen ytd. Didnt hear my mum talking to me .__.
Ytd's worse , couldnt sleep and all . But oh well , nothing i can do about it .

OMGZ

2010-05-06T19:59:00.002+08:00

HI PEOPLE . IM VERY HIGH NOW AND IDK WHY HAHHAHAHAH .
OMGZ.
HAHAHAHHA . MYE ALMOST OVER YAYYYY .
LEFT AMATHS CHEM PHY PAPER 1 ;D
STUPID CHINESE LISTENING HALF AN HOUR ONLY GO SCHOOL HALF AN HOUR
THEN END SCH OMGZ DAMN STUPIDSZX .
HAHAHHAHA .

Yours Truly (:

2010-05-04T20:31:00.006+08:00

Died at chemszx , 12 marks leave blank. No time fill in the blanks and idk how do also. BLEAH !

(:

2010-05-03T20:00:00.003+08:00

Went Je lib study w vin sh ahliang Jx
Jx reach there first and she damnnnn blurrr . She say she wait for us instead of looking for seats omgz.
Somemore call her never pick up , THROW AWAY YOUR PHONE LA HAHAHAH .
Study chem and that dumb vin dk tmr is chem paper .____.
Super cold luh , borrowed jacket from vin .
Went IMM kopitiam eat then bus-ed to Jx hse .
Then vin sh went home while ahliang and me went wm eat dinerrrr .
Then home sweet home :D
HAVENT FINISH STUDYING FOR CHEM OMGZ.

xoxo , ♥

2010-04-28T21:01:00.008+08:00

Dead tired again . Must be exam stress bleah . Or mayb Im just mentally tired ?
Gonna go study w Maya on Friday .
(:

Paranoia .

2010-04-23T18:41:00.012+08:00

Pe remedial after school today *faints . Who ever heard of pe remedial ._.
Did the remaining stations of NAFA then rush home to get my piano books for piano lesson .

REVIVED :D

2010-04-17T13:30:00.003+08:00

Gao gao zi yi wei shuai de emo say my blog is dead .
So im here to update (:
Aac was boring ( DUH ! ) , speeches and all bleah haha .
ended at 8.40pm i think and then CO member only can leave at about 10
so ahliang tossed coin to decide whether we should wait or leave HAHA .
In the end we waited for them , ate then watched their performance at student plaza .
After that they have to keep their instruments and all and briefing , only get to leave the school at 10+ ~ Quite dumb actually , waited for them to GO HOME .
Oh well .

HMPH .

2010-03-27T20:56:00.001+08:00

Blogger is very laggy right now and thus im very irritated .
Waited for dk how long for this to load .
There, i updated , TSH !
I have nothing to update ..
HMPH .

Updated !

2010-02-07T19:27:00.006+08:00

Hi I updated /:

SHIHUI
Sh , what mrs tay .___.
Ask you tag nice things not tag this ley !
hmph , bu gen ni hao le LOL .
BAD SHIHUI HMPH !

GG
Thanks ah noob gg .
You never thank me for giving you my blog link ! :P

JLHL
JLHL hmm is niunai right ! :D

Lynn
NOOOOB LYNN :D

Maya
Weird ayam ! ^^

Shihui
Cool eh date two shihuis ! Okay i want :P

See Im so good , i updated for you ley tsh !

Singapore Flyer .

2009-11-28T14:43:00.003+08:00

Friday, 27 November 09
Went second aunt's hse first yeah . Then leave there at 3+ to Singapore flyer .
Lol went w cousins , aunts , uncles and grandparents to singapore flyer .
Oringinal ticket price is super ex $29.50 .___.
Dontknow why it's $10 now .
Was half enjoying th scenery ( even though there's nothing much to see ._.) and half
playing taidi . Lol boonhwee and boonyang teach me .
Took pictures :D
Ate dinner at some cameron restaurant , chicken rice and 2 plates of veges .
Went mount faber after that .

Lol .

2009-11-09T17:42:00.004+08:00

Pierced my ears ytd /:

Flag Day .

2009-11-07T20:00:00.001+08:00

Flag day today , really tired rawr :(

Stand there for 3 hours collecting donations

Went back to shuqun pri to give th tin back

Then went Jurong Point eat , shared a meal w sh

Bought sushi :D

CHOU SHIHUI SAY SALMON SUSHI NOT NICE

RAWR .

I want to sleep :(

Bored .

2009-11-06T17:24:00.001+08:00

Decided to put a new blogskin as Im feeling reallyyyyy bored !
And since NIUNAI (Hui Lin ) wanted me to update , I decided to do it to make her happy Lol !

Flag day tmr WHICH I REALLY DONT FEEL LIKE GOING .

Rawr , stand there wait for people to donate .

V. WASTE TIME .

Need to do zuowen , ISPL maths ( If it's ISPL , why do LTW need to tell us to do it ? ) , ISPL chem and STUDY PHYSICS .

Even though I pass th short test 1 by 1 pitiful mark , I still need to STUDY .

One week of extended lessons finished Yay ! Time to celebrate that I've survive thru one week of it (: ONE MORE WEEK ONLY ;D